My little Princess

Here is what we have been up to. Almost daily we get the dresses down, pull out the jewelry, high heals, tiara's, and wands. Lately she's been insisting on dancing to "Taylor Swift" all dressed up. It's pretty funny. She knows all the words to "Love Story".
Ever since this princess obsession, Kaylee has been aware of weddings and love.

We were at a store one day after Christmas. Mark was looking for a winter coat. An employee came over and asked if we needed any help. He noticed she had a Cinderella video game and asked her if she liked the princesses. She just stared up at him without answering. I continued helping Mark look around and I noticed she was not beside me. I started calling her name and then saw her following the man around. Embarrassed, I pretended she was just wandering, grabbed her arm, and guided her back. She told me she liked the man, I hushed her and just kept walking. Then Mark came over and that's when the real drama started. She said. " Daddy I love that man." Mark tried to be cool and bent down with her trying to change the subject. She proceeded to scream, "but daddy I love him, I'm in love with him. I want to marry him."
We both freaked at this point, grabbed her, and ran out of the store. As we were leaving I could see the employees laughing.

Perspective

Over the last 2 1/2 years, my perspective on life has totally changed. It is true that after our first miscarriage, our world was rocked to the core. Not only from the pain of losing a child, but mostly from losing what control I "thought" I had over my life situations. We had plans, dreams, a future to live up to. I still lived in the world where I believed that life here on this earth was for the most part all about my happiness. Even after becoming a Christ follower, I still lived in a fantasy world.

I doubt I am alone in these perceptions on life. The bible clearly states the truth, yet we seem to think it isn't talking about us. "In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world." (John 16:33) Lets not forget the first part of that verse..."I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace." Jesus was preparing the disciples for His death, and more importantly His resurrection. He was giving them the most important bit of truth they will ever know, He is the only way for us to experience true peace in this world.

I don't know about you, but I certainly have seen the "trouble" in this world. Both first hand and in so many loved ones lives. My heart is aching right now for several families who are hurting so deeply. If I look really close, it's all around me. My perspective has changed. I view this life from such a different angle now. And because of my renewed perspective on life, I can enjoy it oh so much more. Amazing how that happens. Although I am still currently grieving, I am also filled with such joy.

The last several weeks have been hard. I will see something, hear something and just break down. It usually takes a day or so to recover. I end up talking it out with Mark and coming to another conclusion of where to go next. We are slowly but surely trying to figure out this grieving piece. And God has been so patient with us, something I'll never understand. (I can't imagine being this patient with Kaylee.)

One of the most rewarding parts of the healing process is the people God brings into your life to comfort you and have you comfort. It's such a beautiful picture of the circle of life.
2 Corinthians 1: 3-4 says this, "Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of compassion and the God of all comfort, ⁴who comforts us in all our troubles, so that we can comfort those in any trouble with the comfort we ourselves have received from God."